I'm Comin Home

I'm Comin Home
wait for me..

lawyer say the plea deal can go through
no further lies its bout that time to tell the truth...my eyes red cause if I do
Ill be comin home now not in  real but through the roof
saying youll survive  youll do five maybe out in three
but 8 by 4 cell got a dude watching me thinking if i fell
sound asleep he found out who the real and who the beast
but  bae nevermind that cause...

I'm comin home
wait for me

O lord I aint gone do no more wrong
Please provide cause carrying a shank is my only weapon
lights out in 7 now im sleeping with one eye .. wide open
thinking if i slip another dude will grip and get to choking
cursing the world like mortherfuck that
im a real G with my homies holding me down
only they rolling with fine prett puerta ricans
and i'm inclose  wearing this jumper like
 a trend but nobody remember the charge so
snitching wouldnt help so  dead silent
I become
so im comin home
wait for me

I'm coming home
wait for me

this the last chapter murda she wrote
got them letters saying i gotta go
dont ever write,call, or lust for me
im moving on... out this Tallahassee society
what she mean she leaving me? dame man
is this it ??all the worth that done ruin me
Mama wouldnt visit even on holidays or special releases
it waisnt no release sayin I raise you right
but ill be a fool to pay your bond and get you out
its time to be a Man now accept this punishment
Baby

 but Mama

I'm coming home
wait for me...

Girlfriend problems

I wrote this to imagine you
yet you lie when the truth is transparent
taking bible verses trying to paraphrase the lies
always admitting you working when the naked truth are kisses
no conversations cause arguments follow ...
draining your worries within a bottle
vodka mixing with salt tipsy a little bit
rolling blunts no passing just constant hits

see there you go once more
tripping over laundry not cleaning messes
hair clogging the sink wait...why do I put up with you
figuring the good and the bad
when all emotion is anger and cold food is sitting cross the table
no all I want is you
don't leave kiss me don't fight hug me don't walk away close the door
a rerun I know I seen this before.....

Life

I rattle the cage until I fell asleep
wondering time glass pouring the sand for Homies
gunpowder shattering from the light I seen
keep running Mary , keep running Will,

five in total

One in front, two beside, two behind

keep running Michal, Keep running Steve

we'll make this train lets follow the horns

Six shots hit the barrel of that shotgun

heart beats... beating stops!? where is Michal

4  bullets breaking the car windows
heads turn to spaghetti once more
three last only two unharmed
lets run to Gordon off Fifth Ave
I hear the horn..

if you reading this or hear this story
remember my name fore I am a young Blackman
I didn't deserve this untimely demised
God I prayed a heavens plea Mama I shouldn't listen
Dad I wasn't a smart man like you raise me to be
I am a rain drop from a bullet shot
wait!!..
I hear another  Gun shot......

Real Life never leaves you time to think; so choose the best choices-Peace

Imperfect Chance

I feel awaking anguish building from an
sleeping slumber
consuming my emotions, Who am I? Lord.
No human bears this cross I burden on my lustful way
No path is laid before the land so no choices are revealed who thee
my be; gone transparent  to the eye of the animal instinct

mistress left for a goldmine seeking external greed focusing wealth
will dismissing over cometh years but the scare I bear deepening into brown skin
I wonder  would revenging the emotion reck I am

Wild

7/3/2014
Calvin Marshall
12:55 Thurday
TCC/DSS







I am a mighty man
so mighty and brave
tackling animals with my teeth
breathing down a whipser doesnt tickle thee
roar is bigger then  lion screams
I forsake any gifts for i am wild-untame
nothing can reach the man of the forrest i walk upon
I attack any woman,man, and child. this is a warning
for the cilivilzation folks keep away before I revoke!!!

Anger

Mama told me to loosen my emotion., all hatred i been holding, madeness unfolded in this sinners land I'm provoking see I couldn't resist pull the trigger cause a boy thought to be a man caught his fate unworried eulogy

Lord..

can you hear me? I need you to hear? please feel me.

see sliding in & out of battles horrific scenes make a grown man cry no lie its a knife meet knife

gun powder poured down her throat drawn a line 

nothing but smoke AR-15 spread blood screamslittle kids running cause a police 15 minutes late to the scene see?

Mama told me to loosen my emotionchaos ruin this town cause a innocent

turn clown hurts from a parents love gushing tears from recoil slugsno matter the color we all bleed this colorred so before you chase a nightmareremember we all have our own

Betrayed

Forgotten by a close friend replaying a tape all over again

lets chill only to be rejected by a regular lie. we homies right? 

you got my back and i got yours, but nowadays you acting shady

lets  hang oh i got to watch a baby or i'm  at restoration church. I hate you now

for everything you do I strongly despise you 

Forgotten exposing my feelings and acting like i'm nothing

you drove a knife withing me slash after slash playing holy

carrying a bible knowing words acting different when cover are blown

god gave us both paths but yours is a reflection of nothing but grief cause sorrow engulf you

Weary Soul

I heard ole Men say
never marry a lady whom gone astray
she'll drive your fantasy a mile a minute fast
telling tales of glory yet a serpent in tall grass
lordy lord answer my call im turning away
from heaven. hell is knocking at my doors

One day I heard ole women say
you cant cheat on women care for them as

a new bundle of joy  but lordy lord I been cut deep in my wounds
working a chain gripping my grief in this earth
im dead tired lord im dead tired my feet is crumbling
and eyes are wet there's a storm coming and no house
can cover me from this judgment day the end across thee way
cometh children far and wide my negro spirit is calling my life...


One Day...I heard the Ole me Say
live your life don't steal, cheat, cry, or suicide
even if your mirror break in waste side by thee shores
of Chattahoochee river I live my life lord I did all I could do
I been homeless living in my car making a buck for luck it came through
o lordy lord my parents are divorcing and I'm all alone I cant heal my Mama
pain or my dad playing hurtful games
I wont say this or that don't feel sorry for me lord
by all means this path was made for little ole me sigh....