My Bio

I remember sitting in a corner at school
doing work but never answering the right dots so my progress report
said Failing crying all the way home on the Bus and in my room
out of sight and out of mind
Anxiety took me for a loop teachers telling me I couldn't make it
i wouldn't achieve they couldn't teach a deaf child with no hunger to succeed
what difference does it make if I was a A student or the worst
Ii deserve to have a trophy just like everybody else

Remembering back my mom help me through school
we moved so much I couldn't remember what my best friend name
was always making up people who wasint there angels who talk to me
all the time every city I lived in I never wanted to be behind
but every city I dropped the Ball  hated myself felt like
dropping out of school so many times and you know what hurt the most?
is always achieving but never reaching to finish I gave it my all God
its nothing left to give nothing more to see my Gpa is low my suspended sentence is my shadow
year after year this battle hearing people graduating its hard to smile
dej'vu if you ask me they leaving but im still here why not me
where do I go from here can't remember the last time I saw a trophy or applause  for me
all I ever wanted was somebody to see how bright of a star I could be but instead I got
call names the plot  worsen then anything children hurt in this pain still hunts me
over and over again I cant break its chain I smile when people say how nice
Ii am because that's the only memory that I cherish to claim

I remember one Halloween night we lived at the time in Tallahassee
Southside area my mom bought me a duck costume with a tail on the back
we got thet spray that ooz out when you spray it man it was a good time
my mom and dad never let us be bored or wanted anything shoot by the time
we got older we had bout everything making santa come less often
and gifts and trees go unlit this other time right I walk in this cornfield huge corn
I walk to this lake behind the field I always look at the water never stopping or flowing back up
I wondered if I could go with the stream well moving up to the place
there wasint a chance to fully enjoy life for myself  academics,childhood,adulthood
I turn every corner wishing to be honored by something I made by hard work a letter or a handshake something that built on my character but by the ending of my life when the book closese and im layed to rest i'll say to god was this what I was made for or am Ii just getting a another chance in heaven