Anxiety Test

I been Avoiding the truth
afraid to look into the mirror
instead I rolled in my car pasting the truth
thinking it would somehow fly away or skip town
all the lies and truth cant bring me to the one thing I foresee
unloosen grip felt anxiety skin deep moving under the surface underneath watching locals basketball looking for a answer
its do or die tomorrow test and cant find a cheap way to pass
i honesty needed it hope for it but only looking at myself
seeing the failing truth but only hoping to pass
somehow someway some idolize feature I  pray

Wordz

I swore I was born this way
down to the color i am to the hazel eyes
bit of hot headed and a humorous side
I was the source of all the jokes
trying to marry women before we made eighteen
broken hearts and smashing roses
I swear i was born this way
darker then the most i wore howdies
and look broken educated yet demean by the father figures
so i turnout to the alcohol drinking full bottles
... now look for the turn exit doors burn
poetry is my emotion by the pain
i am not your expectations......

NewBorn

Unborn Child

I never got Chance to see your face
kissing your small Haitian Cheeks
decades past and years closing in
keeping a solid gip on life its harder to comprehend
Foodstamps shortages,no joke finning for a meal.
Ticket say nomo ill be outti

Unborn Child

Remember the good not overal past dues
Create steps to follow and not sand dunes
if i wake tomorrow in a upper room
tell mama let lights shin in a negro
spritiul to harmonies the mood
i wish i had another moment to capitalize
for you  so out of all the angels i met
god sent mine to replace to a unborn caption
came in my emptyspace so i love
you and this is truth

Unborn Child

this is for you....

Black Scripture

see im fretful tonight
feet is hurting body shiver
holding signs yes im Black but
i am not a N***** Dont say it people
this land is our just as little yours
sweat picking cotton gotten sick lay dormit
body roteing i am sick as I can beat
people breAK the darker corners cause the black
they couldnt see yes i am Trayvon martin
skittles and a ice tee yes i am black NOW WHAT DO YOU SEE??

MotherLand

Africa I am
Born to be a heritage four fathers
beating a Bingo Drum be awaken Africa
String a bee Honey blood to paint this world
Walk with the surface of ashes beneath my swift feet
when the world is a cruel masterpiece!
I look unto a cloud only to hell cometh down
awaken African Soul

I am greedy tho she seem to love
... me stubborn to be hug yet her arms
wrap my attire motherland so far
when tears come onto the plains
isn't that sunset I see when Africa
peaks over the darkest rest
and dust of Africa raises again

FruitVale

That's what I heard
after the last light of sanity left
my line of sight
 celebrating
New Yeas Eve

Rough city
cant learn in elementary
made graffiti onside building
why the fuck should I care
society crude world
etc etc etc
Another Warm Winter
Shai Town land where cops
turn dirtier then a High-top shoe lace

But Yall
aint hearing me Though.....

Voice familiar face
saying hello long time no escape
grieving inside cause I knew my identity broke
chest heavy fainting  yet a crowd
another guy recognize a hoodlum
three guys fist and bubblegum under shoes
repeating the kicks to my head its a ...Bruise
Copes Pull me and leave the accuse

hands behind heads as he pulls
the last sanity away hot iron
burning the chest holding on
cant see a thing only a tunnel
naaaw yep... its heaven
game over mayne in Fruitvale

 

Last Moment

"God"



This is it, close the door, darkness begin

Befriend elders get wisdom from within

Heart weak chest pain gets worst

... I think they call me home...Still alone

Drinking away my fears

Grip lessen bottle drops

Ricochet from the ground

To my ears blood red isn't that I'm dead

Pray God my soul to take last breath awaits

Then I hear a voice and it says:

"Everything is everything, you'll be okay"

God is here now, tomorrow is a better day

Here I thought I succumb to my sins

But I just needed God

Love, trust, faith from within

When you don't see

Other footprintsin sand

That mean he carrying you...Yh Yh Yh