Weary Soul

I heard ole Men say
never marry a lady whom gone astray
she'll drive your fantasy a mile a minute fast
telling tales of glory yet a serpent in tall grass
lordy lord answer my call im turning away
from heaven. hell is knocking at my doors

One day I heard ole women say
you cant cheat on women care for them as

a new bundle of joy  but lordy lord I been cut deep in my wounds
working a chain gripping my grief in this earth
im dead tired lord im dead tired my feet is crumbling
and eyes are wet there's a storm coming and no house
can cover me from this judgment day the end across thee way
cometh children far and wide my negro spirit is calling my life...


One Day...I heard the Ole me Say
live your life don't steal, cheat, cry, or suicide
even if your mirror break in waste side by thee shores
of Chattahoochee river I live my life lord I did all I could do
I been homeless living in my car making a buck for luck it came through
o lordy lord my parents are divorcing and I'm all alone I cant heal my Mama
pain or my dad playing hurtful games
I wont say this or that don't feel sorry for me lord
by all means this path was made for little ole me sigh....

Dance,Family,Love

Dance
Everyday I wish to be a great dancer
people never thought that dance  free you from bondage
a grip loosen a little in a way most wont understand
I remember seeing James brown,Michael Jackson,Usher,etc.
I never thought I'll be a Dancer I couldn't be in front of people
I was so shy it kill me to even give speeches but all that
changed by the grace of god


Family
Is the most important word in a book
we are raise and taught tactics to survive these rough cities
My eyes saw the world as a usual place people never say Thank you
and shout words to discourage you for goals even teachers dont believe in the unbelievers at times
so family is everything when the world covers your whole reality to see the greener grass


Love
I love somebody who I could live a life with she is a drop of honey from the
tree of Bees but the emptiness of the word fills my hope to for a wife whom loved the potential to be
a "good thing," I believe I was too late when I ask God to find someone not because he is on my time
but I will always deeply care for her until the day we both realize it and nobody can break it

My Bio

I remember sitting in a corner at school
doing work but never answering the right dots so my progress report
said Failing crying all the way home on the Bus and in my room
out of sight and out of mind
Anxiety took me for a loop teachers telling me I couldn't make it
i wouldn't achieve they couldn't teach a deaf child with no hunger to succeed
what difference does it make if I was a A student or the worst
Ii deserve to have a trophy just like everybody else

Remembering back my mom help me through school
we moved so much I couldn't remember what my best friend name
was always making up people who wasint there angels who talk to me
all the time every city I lived in I never wanted to be behind
but every city I dropped the Ball  hated myself felt like
dropping out of school so many times and you know what hurt the most?
is always achieving but never reaching to finish I gave it my all God
its nothing left to give nothing more to see my Gpa is low my suspended sentence is my shadow
year after year this battle hearing people graduating its hard to smile
dej'vu if you ask me they leaving but im still here why not me
where do I go from here can't remember the last time I saw a trophy or applause  for me
all I ever wanted was somebody to see how bright of a star I could be but instead I got
call names the plot  worsen then anything children hurt in this pain still hunts me
over and over again I cant break its chain I smile when people say how nice
Ii am because that's the only memory that I cherish to claim

I remember one Halloween night we lived at the time in Tallahassee
Southside area my mom bought me a duck costume with a tail on the back
we got thet spray that ooz out when you spray it man it was a good time
my mom and dad never let us be bored or wanted anything shoot by the time
we got older we had bout everything making santa come less often
and gifts and trees go unlit this other time right I walk in this cornfield huge corn
I walk to this lake behind the field I always look at the water never stopping or flowing back up
I wondered if I could go with the stream well moving up to the place
there wasint a chance to fully enjoy life for myself  academics,childhood,adulthood
I turn every corner wishing to be honored by something I made by hard work a letter or a handshake something that built on my character but by the ending of my life when the book closese and im layed to rest i'll say to god was this what I was made for or am Ii just getting a another chance in heaven

Mixed

  God Do you hear me?
I can't hear no plea for this hatred
in tall grass hiding in the picture I can't see
moving bricks crossed the Mexican Border
living in a fantasy popping in a dark hole to
Christmas snow ooz out
oops this is PG 13 so keep lyrics straight no weighted
word by word God come in my way
cause the clap of this gun powder explode turn chestses into potatoes
God Do you hear me?

I let go god slip in the cracks
broken away the way I look back searching
for wolves in a yellow stone park
swimming till I drown in my own lust
I bust three windows to finish the initiated
group cell block one closed the door
getting pride taking away in my own light
who am I tonight....

                                  
    

Soul Food

Soul food

I look back on myself all the blood,tears,and adventurous journeys
gaping the gaps in-between & considerations of people feelings
never once forgetting my place knowing ill be check quick so my Ps & Qs came right
loving the food we referred to as Soul food

Crisco,chicken.rice,greens,and homemade lemonade,koolaide,sugar water yeah!!the good ole days how it will never be the exact same ...
time takes a letter at a time losing a sunt,uncle, until the phase is nomore
to diseases and poverty I see no reunions only clashing of greed
we no longer come unless a person pass
and the term soulfood is r.i.p.
to the generations pass yep good ole food...

I Met A lady by the Road

I Met A Lady By The Road she said son have you been to church? I said no.She said why Son? because the judgmental eyes are upon me .I go in jeans and timbos and a tank-top but a open heart to accept the heavens love. Lady look concern beyond despair grabbing MY LOST-HOPE AND WARMING MY EMPTY SOUL 

Criss-Crossed 
back and fourth again hugging a job only to walk out of church cause i have no Ends raising my excuse finger so no-more will I return hatred I felt and a blind lesson learn Ma'am
Yes! why do you stand alone?I'm not alone son this is my home
for the life I once live is long gone I pass away leaving two kids and a husband in my grandmothers home
then how can I see you now?Son cause you need a Angel to help you walk this road.Confused hesitating to answer but he said I am a good person Ma'am yes you are
yet you lost the very thing to give you hope i'm here to bring the love of God back into your heart

Birthday today im 23

23rd
Today is a better day
twenty three sure feels strange
body growing older mindset resetting
two decades and three years wow how fast
years goes by I remember 25 cents prices oppose
to record high! 90s baby the best of my life
as I look back on all the birthdays I had..
I believe I did alright
bday poem